Blogging blues

I wanna blog, but I'm not sure what to blog about. So I won't be moving this Wednesday. Changed to week after next due to unforeseen circumstances. Doesn't matter anyways, no biggie. I wanna blog about my trip to Penang, Kedah and Perak but don't know where to start. Left my USB cable in the office, so can't retrieve my pictures yet. Yup, besides Penang, my colleague and me managed to squeeze in Kedah and Perak into our schedule too. Tiring sia. She fell sick some more, poor girl. I wanna blog about me and Buu's Bukit Tinggi trip. Where we transcended to a make-believe French square. I wanna blog about my evening gown. I finally got a gown before I went to Penang. I love it, and it's a steal. But no pictures coz Buu being the dear, sent it for dry cleaning while I was away. Thank you for the sweet surprise. Anyway, I'm keeping the gown veiled till the ceremony's over. So, there will not be any pictures about it too. I wanna blog about mid-autumn, but it seems so weird to blog about it now. I wanna blog about my beautiful Sunday. I saw Heineken bottles, and started whistling that commercial tune. It led me to the market, to the breakfast stall where I routinely frequent every week. Where I sip my fragrant cuppa, poring over the newspaper.

I just want to blog. And looks like I just did that.

Buu's new blog

Barely a week away and so many things have cropped up. XD

Kicking off,

• Buu has a new blog! Do show him support, click on the ads. *laughs* XD
• On top of that, Buu got himself a new camera too.
• RPK has been sent to Kamunting for 2 years. This, I, mourn.
• I'm moving house this Wednesday. Just got updated by my cuzy when I got back yesterday.

My own crib, whee!

baby..

I love you

I'm afraid that I won't be able to say goodbye to you.
... even though you're just a few rooms away, I'm missing you already.

I love you
I love you
I love you
I love you
I love you
I love you

Please take good care of yourself when I'm away.
Can't wait to be back in your arms again.

hugs.kisses

Short update

I'll be leaving for Penang island this afternoon, to be precise. Work commitments. Shall be there for a week till this coming Saturday.

In the meantime, I won't be able to post anything for this period and I apologize first for the absence of updates. :) Gomen~


PS: Dear sepets, pls keep me updated abt the gathering thru sms. ribuan terima kasih. hugs

Organic

You know the "organic" concept has gone too far when you spot...

... Organic underwear

Teresa Kok-Released!

Breaking news - Teresa Kok has been released at 1 pm earlier on and will be holding a press conference later at 3.30 pm. (Source from Malaysiakini.)

Datuk Zaid Ibrahim - He Who Stood Out

Finally, we have a man who stood out among the midst of warlords.

At a tumultous period that we're facing now, we need people who can voice out, who can make a difference, who can show that we do not need to follow the blind.

We have RPK. And now, we have Zaid Ibrahim who have that decided enough is enough.

The PM has approved of his resignation, as reported on news today. His resignation is a loss to people who wants to see justice done. In times like this, I can't help but harbour a flicker of hope and thought that... what if he stays on and continue the fight from enemy base? The people are in need of brave fighters who dare to turn the tables on the warlords, more than we need a martyr.

Nevertheless, it's a very courageous move and should be applauded. The man must have thought a great deal before coming to that decision. He had fought well. With people like him, we might still have hope for the country.

"In the land of the blind, the one-eyed man is stoned to death."
Joan D. Vinge

Personality in a name

Find out your personality by spelling out your name.

A You can be very quiet when you have something on your mind.
B You are always cautious when it comes to meeting new people.
C You definitely have a partier side in you, don't be shy to show it.
D You have trouble trusting people.
E You are a very exciting person.
F Everyone loves you.
G You have excellent ways of viewing people.
H You are not judgmental.
I You are always smiling and making others smile.
J Jealously
K You like to try new things.
L Love is something you deeply believe in.
M Success comes easily to you.
N You like to work, but you always want a break.
O You are very open-minded.
P You are very friendly and understanding.
Q You are a hypocrite.
R You are a social butterfly.
S You are very broad-minded.
T You have an attitude, a big one.
U You feel like you have to equal up to people's standards.
V You have a very good physique and looks.
W You like your privacy.
X You never let people tell you what to do.
Y You cause a lot of trouble.
Z You're always fighting with someone

Apparently, I like to try new things.
I'm not judgmental.
I'm very open-minded.
I cause a lot of trouble.
I'm very quiet when I've something on my mind.
I have an attitude, a big one.
I'm always fighting with someone.
And i'm a very exciting person.

I sound like a thug. lolx. I love being ME! hahaha~

Malaysia, a shared motherland

As a child, I once asked my dad: "Why do you seem to love my sister more than me?"

I still remembered his answer till today, the very words that sliced through my heart.

"I struck lottery when she was born."

Little ripples like that can create waves of furor at sea.

As Malaysians, we'd like to think that we're undivided. We're harmoniously assimilated. We're living happily together under one roof. Regardless of creed and colour.

Reality wise, we're just scattered pieces of jigsaws, waiting to be pieced together.

It's impossible to skim over the sensitive issue of the 'r' word. It dates back centuries to yours and my grandparents alike. On the glamorous side, we boomed loud and clear to foreigners saying we are one. What an idiosyncratic bunch we are.

How do we stop hurtling stones at each other? It doesn't stop when one keeps booming of its superiority complex.

I used to hate my sister. I hate her for the TLC she gets without even trying. I hate her for getting all the perks that I had to live without. Just because I was thought of as a lesser human-being.

Tragedy does not come uninvited.

When my world deserted me, I could only retreat into my shell. Enforcing it with battle ammunition. Not because I want to. Because I feel unwanted.

I feel small, hence I retaliate. With words, with actions.

Isn't that what's happening now?

On a larger scale. It's not between me and my sister anymore. It's between the motherland's daughters and sons.

The only way to break this vicious cycle is to stop flaunting the superiority, and start assimilating.

Stop claiming ownership over the motherland. When all of us are stepping and building our future on the same land.

P/S: I love my sister now. :)

Furniture search

I'm looking for:

• a second hand fridge.
• a second hand washing machine
• a bedframe with mattress

Anyone got friends or friends of friends who wants to sell, do contact me. :)

I'm moving to a new place by mid October.

Will miss the quiet neighbourhood where I'm staying now.

All the same, I'm glad the end of my tumpang-ing rumah days are near.

random rant

The one who made derogatory remarks isn't detained under ISA. He got away with a light slap and will bound back with his waggly tail lapping his master's hand in 3 years time. And I thought what he said was seditious. (Thanks to the guv, I made myself go dictionary.com to find out the definition of 'sedition')

*runs away, crouch in corner, points finger at Emu, and screams "double standard!!"*

I don't like DSAI, he gives me the creeps. But I dislike the Emu even more. I get so much bottled-up angst inside, as I follow the daily political dish-outs. Blast the crooks. I'll sooner or later die of angina seeing the cipets doing all those ridiculous stuff! The twits don't know how stupid they look with those half-hearted reasons they detained the victims with. a*ses. I doubt they'll come to their senses even if we bludgeon them with a club.

Heart goes out to the ones detained under ISA. One's free. Jolly news.

Things the guv should know?

That we people aren't stupid enough to get brainwashed or instigated by a mere news blog (Read the banned new site, the son of Malaysia Today - MT Harapan Malaysia), an MP who really works (Click to read why the MP got detained), and a journalist who actually cleansed her ears prior to the press conference and put the facts into ink. No, wild fire can't blind us like how you actually hypnotize yourselves into believing your own fabrications.

More mush~

Time - a word worth pondering on.

I got a thong today. Free. It's black, with red bunga-bungaan embroidery at the crotch. And I'm telling you I ain't gonna wear the thing or ..... thong. Heck, you wouldn't too. It's got my company's logo on it.

Today is just.. mundane. And weird. I feel like a blurry puddle of mud. It struck me that how come I don't delve deeper into things. This led me into realising I'm pretty simple-minded. Ain't sure that's a good thing or not. Probably not. Grrr.. Must.think.more.

Put-off of the day:

"I thought you knew."

I'm have a strong urge of turning this into a rant post. That's bad. No, it's not going to happen.

Thinking happy thoughts.. owh, here's 1. Next Wednesday, public holiday for Selangor - Nuzul Quran; and my company has granted us the hol. WoOt~ Next, Buu's coming in 1 minute's time. And I got a new picture of mushroom! I miss my meliar-ing dates with the mush at Hutan Rimba Kiara, and with Buu. Never mind, we've got to move one. Lap the pic up~

Mushrooms at Buu's wakaf, gorgeous kan?

Mix and Match

Hunch of the day: Food blogs are extremely aphrodisiacal. Ooh la la..

Today is mix-n-match day. Played around with my clothes and accessories. Des-chan commented that I gave her the Avril feel. No no.. I ain't cheerleader-ish. I went all preppy today. Took my skirt ribbon and doubled it as a tie! Siap with "tie clip" tim... my butterfly hairclip from YY. Was garbed in a long-sleeved white shirt ensemble with grey pin-striped pants. Oh, add a high ponytail too. :)

Sometimes, dressing up makes me feel so much more cheerful and invigorated. It's not often that I make an attempt at exuding more self-confidence physically. I suppose a dose of self-esteem boost doesn't hurt once in a blue moon, does it? :)

Like any normal homo sapiens, I suffer from the occasional plummet of self-esteem. Especially during this phase, when unstable elements are lurking abound. Hence, this is one of my fixes to counteract this mundane idiosyncrasy. Having insufficient funds to indulge in retail therapy yet, this is a very fun alternative of ditching my tension while displaying my creative flair besides cooking and eating.

Of course, there are no brownie points for the effort. But the key point is, I feel loved.

"Loving myself" was once a scandalous phrase to my ears. I dare not imagine me pampering myself. The very thought of it scathes my mind. It could sound unique to some, but it felt perfectly normal to me. I deluded myself into thinking the world would be a better place if I shared less of its beauties, glimpsed less of its treasures. Somehow, as I met more wise men along my pilgrimage, I was made to discover that I was mistaken. Stepping out of the vicious cycle is not easy, I still fall back into the self-deprived state on and off. But, I'm improving.

When I care for myself, I increase my capability of caring for people. When I feel loved, I love back with no boundaries.

Will you join me in loving yourself?

Being a newbie means.. you'll be left out of almost everything. (o_0")

Heard of Sunday blues?

Nothing much to update today. Just wanted to share with the world that I never knew Sunday can be dreary. I've been thinking a lot on my financial position and begun fretting. Welcome to adult world. Pffst. The world I refuse to step into even when age permits.

Yesterday was little Andre's baby shower. Grand affair. I lost count of the number of babies in the house. Gone are the days when parties are filled with drunk people, toppling one after another because of booze, from early evening till the withching hour and finally those who triumphantly remained the last ones standing at cock crow. All the boys have grown up. Instead of liquor tolerance, they're now showing off their little mites to each other.

Am reveling in the peaceful air in the office. My horoscope predicted that I have poor stars for health and work. I'm not sure how true that is. I had a restful sleep last night, made it for brekkie with Chris & had a relatively smooth sailing day. Perhaps I did not get much work done, but I'm working on it.

Owh.. I managed to do some research on a few netbooks. Having a tough time deciding which would be a better alternative to replace my retired NEC. I've been reading up on a few models:

1. MSI Wind U 90/ 100
2. Asus Eee PC 900/ 901/ 1000/ 1000H
3. Acer Aspire One
4. Lenovo S10
   

Buu got me to see the Asus 900 last Monday. I like everything about it except for the keypad. The keypad's real tiny, though Buu said it'll fit my fingers just fine. I still have doubts on that. And after I did the research today, the Asus 901 sits down better with me. I'm excited over the 6 cell battery, over 900's 3 cell. The 1000H offers better features, but with its price, it'll be more rational for one to go for a regular notebook, as pointed out by reviewers. Netbooks are coveted for portability and budget pricing, that's the whole point. That's with the exception if you want a secondary notebook.

MSI Wind U100 is tempting as well. But the 6 cell ones have not reached our shores yet, except for the limited ed Love Book which is filled with hearts, if I did not get my facts wrong. And it's a bit pricey, again for a netbook. MSI's not really hot in M'sia, compared to Singapore. But its features are supposed to be worth the $$ if you can spare the dough. Which is sadness (to me) coz I'm looking for a budget buy.

Buu managed to show me the Acer Aspire One as well on Monday. I didn't like the screen, but I like its keypad better. Lenovo S10 on hearsay is a budget buy, though features not comparable to those of Asus and MSI. Need to research more on the Aspire and S10. As a conclusion, I have my sights placed momentarily on the MSI Wind U100 and Asus Eee PC 901.

Geez. Win some, lose some. Well, i still have time to decide and (hopefully) wait for the prices to decline. At the moment, the netbook is not a necessity yet. I have to save for something bulkier. Now I'm having the feeling: So many things to buy, so little marnee. Hehe. Time to outsource for more temping jobs.

I'm pretty fired up to work today. Set time limits for each assignment. And managed to complete a few within timeline, and some slightly over but still, completed. Making a mental note to be more careful because I made some careless bloopers here and there in my haste to complete the assignments. Yea, boss called to office to point out and rectify my mistakes. I was surprisingly calm and collected, my mind kept teling me that it's a learning experience, and I felt happy. Come to think about it, it's a positive change from my usual self.

On a bleaker note, i can't help feeling that I'm under scrutiny. Sigh. What did I do to raise the OBs heckles? I have the horrid feeling of being eyed in everything I do, and the OBs are taking pleasure in pouncing on my every little mistake. I especially dislike their distinct snide eye movements which reek of contempt when they talk to me. Perhaps I'm just too paranoid. Let's just brush this niggling feeling aside. I need the drive to resume my duties for today.

Pray let me have the power to stay pleasant and patient.

And I shall begin by smiling and putting on some great music.

My home-cooked dinner last night. Onion pancake topped with mayonnaise and bonito flakes. A bit of okonomiyaki style minus the rich array of ingredients used.

A great start to a beautiful morning..

Got hyped to work with an empowering song on air..

"when the going gets tough, the tough gets going!"

Sunrise from home.

I like the rusty merge of colours, the silhouette of the building and the slightly visible lone palm on the terrace.

I have small eyes.