nuts...Nuts!

What a ballistic day.. Marketing class is a zoo. The tirade of remarks we made in whispers, and some not so loud ones.. I made some really filthy ones. *smacks head in disbelief* Actually...they came out of my mouth before i could even stop them. Wait, do you call that the autonomic response? Blah... whatever. It sure beats having a graveyard for the class. As far as i'm concerned, there's a huaking funny joker in the class. The shite he churns out are pretty amusing. I'm beginning to enjoy marketing class more and more. *rubs hands in glee*

In retrospect, Swishy Hair's making me nervous.. the work is piling.. *gulpz*

Anyway, it has been a fruitful day... and I'm glad for friends like Stikx and Kaz. =)

In no jolly mood

Appetite-less.. i don't feel like eating for the whole day. But i bought 2 breads anyway just for my tummy's sake, lest the gastric pangs start its furor again. Haven't eaten any yet though. Just broke off 2 tiny pieces and nibbled.

Many friends feel that I don't love myself enough. But I never felt so.. to me, it all seems so normal. I guess they can see things better than I do. Perhaps I really don't love myself. Few would know, if not one only, that I've been toying with ideas of smoking and cutting myself. It sounds stupid to most sane people. But for the ones looking for a channel to release, anything is possible. Especially when the load gets unbearable.. and the inner pain has to be numbed by focusing on some other self-inflicted pain..

Still, I'm sane enough not to carry out these things yet..

Looking forward to a better day tomorrow..

Inspiration

I couldn't get myself into the mood to study much last night.

Neither could i sleep.

So i tinkered around and came out with this picture.

The sentences were inspired by his 4 little words:

"Just love each other"

food~

Mmmm... my whole brain's full of food. Macaronni and cheese, mushrooms...lots of mushrooms, potatoes: grilled, salad, fried,mashed; cheese..goat cheese, cream cheese, cheddar cheese, parmesan cheese, mozarella cheese...and luscious strawberries! (@_@)

A picture says a thousand words

Sunday blues

Hmm.. I'm feeling lazy to the max. Slacker. spunkz is a big time slacker. Bad spunkz. Baaaad.....

How can I slack when I still have my food tech assignment incomplete? Arrgghh... history of breakfast cereals.. I still have a pile of thesis journals to plow through.. huak! Swishy hair o Swishy hair, why did you insist on the proposal this thursday? *griping in misery*

On top of all these tasks, I'm feeling huge. My stomach's been a bottomless pit this week. I'm constantly ravenous and can't stop thinking of food, even as I'm typing now. I haven't been a good girl exactly, I've started back on my instant noodle diet again. It's far too tempting because it certainly tastes better than some of the takeaway food near my place, fills me up, is cheap and super convenient.

Baby's back. But he's not as cheery as usual. He lost his bike. And I think he's exhausted from the continuous 2 week camp. I miss the chirpy webby. sigh~ Seeing him like that, I myself could barely lift my spirits up.. and I'm not really doing a good job of concealing. so noob.

It's wonderful that he's back. But I've got a bigger problem now. My endless assignments for sure would be merciless in sparing me any time to see him. (-_-!!!) Dang... I really missed him. I can't spend the coming weekend with my baby either because I've got to go home. After that, I'll be bogged down by those pesky midterm papers.. (O_o) And then, baby's jetting off to Medan, Jakarta and most probably Singapore. *siiiiigghhhhh*

I'm feeling blue...

Extremely.

Silly snaps

Rainy day

Why do we see so many snails after a heavy rain? Uhh..... I wonder. Here I am, stuck in the computer lab because of the on-off downpour outside. Worst still, my house is now only 500 metres walk away from the uni.. (T_T) As the saying goes: So near yet so far...

*Eyes wide open*

The Dark Art's prince is quite a looker. Well, maybe i'm a sucker for artsy-fartsy nuts. Still, he ain't much of a poet.. *giggles* his verses don't quite...ahem...rhyme. But one thing for sure, the siblings are art in motion.. so surreal and lucid..as are their creations..hauntingly beautiful..

*Tears away from envy and admiration*

Stick... well, Stick is good. Stick doesn't piss me off anymore. I'm beginning to like Stick a lot. Because Stick talks rough with me, well because I act like a ruffian around Stick too. So uncounth and unbecoming of a young lady but what the huak.. spunkz likes Stick! Stick is funny, Stick is kind... and Stick's one of the few who doesn't judge me. :)

I'm enjoying my uni days pretty much these days. Good things never last, do they? I just hope this one does. At least for the time being.

Ambling aimlessly down the mile,
Thin air is what I grasp and howl,
Dreams do weave in once in a while,
But as swift as they escape like the jungle fowl,
Into my palms I weep and pray,
when will i ever find my way...