Monday, 23 August 2010

it's dark, once again

I've been feeling these tiny knots in my stomach for the 3rd time in the past one week and it's really disconcerting. It's barely 2 hours after lunch and there it is again. I suspect it's mild gastritis and I've resorted to constant snacking with hopes that it'll ebb away.

Yes I do know that I brought it upon myself for my irregular meals, once twice or none for the past 2 weeks or so. Call me a glutton for self-punishment. I admit I am. Sometimes having these pains just diverts my focus from other things. I guess it's similar to cutting except I have not attempted it before.

I'm sad. I know why. I don't know why. I need help. I am my own help. I need to cry out. I have cried. I'm strong. I'm fragile. I'm everything you think I am. I am everything you don't know a thing about.

Haruka, the ogre eating goblin.. (Tactics)

My blood is dirty... (Johnny, Vassalord)

.....don't know why haruka and johnny just popped into mind


咖啡欣。caffeine said...

and i believe the sun shine on you again after the darkness. No matter how, love yourself always. bath with sweat when you want to punish youeself

spunkz said...

you never fail to make me smile <3

Des-chan said...'s really hard to advice you...but i hope u know we as fren always want you to be healthy and's not worthy to hurt yourself in any ways...

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