June is coming to an end, and not a day passes by without me worrying. I question my self-worth at times.. yet I do understand that waiting is also part of the game.. the cycle of life.
Life is not an easy decision to make, so I learnt from the drama. We veer off the path from time to time, and we also steer ourselves back on track. We just try... and try again. That's what life is all about, trial and error. There ain't much miracles such as a hole-in-one or a bull's eye shot.
I do not know if what I'm doing is correct along the path of my own life.. I make mistakes. I just keep trying and trying again. I pondered back and thought many times, had I put in more effort in school, I'd be better off now, won't I? Yet, how can I be sure? I do know that I've given my best shot in every battle. It's tiring to be strong all the time. I want to give up, and hide under the covers. And perhaps that is why I teared when yankumi said:
"It's all right to show a bit of weakness sometimes."
And she said hell loads of things that made my tear ducts run dry. dang yankumi. you are so spot-on... you soothed my soul, and allayed my fears. arigatou, sensei...
When they say watcing TV makes you stupid, I wonder what they meant. I find watching dramas like this inspiring and encouraged me to look into my own life, my own actions. It propels me to decide that I want to be better, to stop blaming myself and instead start looking forward.
I may not be the brightest around, but I know.... I have that thing inside me, that makes me human. I'll get my shot in life someday, yeah.. I will. That's why I'm singing to this song. :)
出頭天 /五月天
在我的天頂
在我的一生
在我的天頂
血乾會結痂
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