but loving is never easy.. i thought it was. how naive...
i hate the complicated feelings that encroach itself around me..
i feel so vulnerable
you always say i need to control them
i can't stop them from flowing free
but i really want to beg you of one thing
stop treating me like one of them
i'm not them
and never will be
can't i just be the special one that you shower with love
instead of the small kid you wish to motivate
i hate today.
i hate myself.
damn me to hell.
i so pray.